We are
three days from celebrating Griffin’s 1st birthday. In the same sense I am also celebrating my
first year of motherhood. I strongly
believe that I became a mother the day Luke and I decided to start our family. However, this is the first time I actually
got to experience motherhood.
Motherhood
has changed me so much as a person. I
have learned to cherish every moment with Griffin. There are so many first that will happen and
every one of them I have cherished the memories. Motherhood has taught me not to sweat the
small stuff. The house will get clean, eventually. The dishes in the sink have been there for 3
days, but they will get done, eventually.
In the first few weeks of being home with
Griffin I knew we would have visitors pop in and out and I always had to have
my house clean, picked up, and make sure it was inviting. As the weeks went on, I knew that the people
were coming to visit my son, not my home.
I learned not to sweat it if I did not get a shower in and I learned how
to concentrate on the joys of motherhood, stinky or not.
Motherhood
has taught me to love life. I have
turned into an “outdoorsman” because that’s where my son loves to be. I have learned to be more outgoing and talk
to people that I don’t know. I am still working
on being more outgoing, but having Griffin is bringing me out of more shell
more and more.
Motherhood
has taught me to work harder than I have ever before. It has taught me patience, structure, and
love like I have never known before. My
life that I live and the way I look at it has changed because of
motherhood.
Motherhood
has taught me to appreciate my mom and my mother in law a lot more because I
now know the love they have for Luke and I.
Motherhood
has made me want to explore more than ever and to be able to show my son what
the world has to offer.
My spirit
has gotten stronger, I am more grateful, and I could not imagine what my life
would be if I was not a mother.
I know
motherhood suits me. I feel it in my
bones. I know I was meant to be a
mother. I know I was meant to have the
most rewarding, beautiful, and joyous thing a person can imagine.
My heart
is so full and I will never forget my first year as a mother.